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I woke up it was seven, I waited till elevenJust to figure out that no one would callI think I've got alot of friends, but I don't hear from themWhat's another night alone?When your spending every day on your ownAnd here it goes...I'm just a kid and life is a nightmareI'm just a kid I know that it's not fairNobody cares 'cause I'm all alone and the world isHaving more fun than me... tonightAnd maybe when the night is dead,I'll crawl into my bedStaring at these four walls againI'll try and think about the last timeI had a good time. Everyone's gotSomewhere to go, and they're gonna leave meHere on my own and here it goes...I'm just a kid and life is a nightmareI'm just a kid I know that it's not fairNobody cares 'cause I'm aloneAnd the world is havin' more fun than me...What the fuck is wrong with me?Don't fit in with anybodyHow did this happen to me?Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep and every night isThe worst night ever...I'm just a kidI'm just a kidI'm just a kid (I'm just a kid)Yeah, I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid, I'm just a kid)I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid, I'm just a kid)I'm just a kid and life is a nightmareI'm just a kid and I know that its not fairNobody cares 'cause I'm aloneAnd the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the worldI'm just a kid and life is a nightmareI'm just a kid and I know that its not fairNobody cares 'cause I'm aloneAnd the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the worldNobody cares 'cause I'm aloneand the world is having more fun than me... TonightI'm all alone... TonightNobody cares... TonightCause I'm just a kid... Tonight-Im just a kid by:Simple PlanI feel alone and I can't stand it, I mean yes I do live with my mom and brother, Im alone all day, so its like I live alone. Im so alone, I dont want to leave nmh, I don't want to leave my friends, I don't want to leave those who are more than friends, I don't want to leave all of those whom I hold dear, but at this point they seem more like a fading illusion, a dream the you could swear was so real, until it vanished when you tried to grab it... I don't to lose my home, nmh is home and I can't lose it... but at this point... it looks like it is as good as gone... How do you say goodbye to some one? If you can't even speak ... I won't be boarding next year... but I want to... why the fuck DOES EVERYTHING COST MONEY!!! WHY!! IT FUCKING SUCKS CAUSE IT DOESNT GIVE PEOPLE A CHANCE TO MOVE UP, YOU GET A LITTLE AND LIFE ENDS UP TAKING A LOT, I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN LIFE WAS AGAINST ME AND NOW I KNOW FOR SURE, THAT LIFE DOES NOT WANT ME HAPPY, IT HAS TAKEN ALMOST EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE MADE IN THE PAST TWO YEARS, EVERYTHING! WHY CAN'T LIFE LET ME BE HAPPY! I THOUGHT FOR ONCE I COULD DO SOMETHING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, like going to the same damn highschool for four years. but no... i have to go back to new hampshire, the one place i never wanted to be, i had no friends, now i wont have my friends, or my hobbie, frisbee was my best type of salvation at nmh, I could always just toss around and all emotion was thrown away with each throw of the disc, friends was second, with third being music. Now, no frisbee, the friends that I could always rely on... gone... now all thats left is the music.. and I'll probably be back to video games... letting my life drift into some one elses, living in a fantasy where people learn to grow strong and over come their boundaries, unlike this world where the rules are if you get fucked... its not our problem....crawling in my skinthese wounds they will not healfear is how I fallconfusing what is realthere's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfaceconsuming/confusingthis lack of self-control I fear is never endingcontrolling/I can't seemto find myself againmy walls are closing in(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way beforeso insecurecrawling in my skinthese wounds they will not healfear is how I fallconfusing what is realdiscomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon medistracting/reactingagainst my will I stand beside my own reflectionit's haunting how I can't seem... to find myself againmy walls are closing in(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way beforeso insecurecrawling in my skinthese wounds they will not healfear is how I fallconfusing what is realcrawling in my skinthese wounds they will not healfear is how I fallconfusing confusing what is realthere's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfaceconsuming/confusing what is realthis lack of self-control I fear is never endingcontrolling/confusing what is real-Crawling by:Linkin ParkLeaving so much unsaid is dangerous, and yet safe... you don't know who will understand and you don't know who will exploit it as nothing but a weakness, the perfect spot for a brutal attack on ones pride, leaving them to be alone with out any sense of self esteam.